Time to go for therapy?

This week I've been a bit busy for writing to occur, and I've had time only for contemplation here and there, but I have resolved to contact a therapist, as there are some hurdles I am having difficulty jumping on my own.

I have two major issues: success, and sex-and-emotional-intimacy.

I don't handle success well...I love the way it makes me feel: empowered, unstoppable, charismatic...but I don't like the attention that comes with it. People are attracted to success in others, and I find it both distracting and overwhelming, so typically I sabotage myself. Intellectually I am aware of this, but I can't seem to block the subconscious forces at work. I'm hoping my therapist can help me break that habit by coming to terms with my discomfort.

Then there is the sex-and-intimacy issue. I had some formative sexual experiences that cause me to disassociate sex and emotions. I learned to endure the unendurable by finding physical pleasure in it, while rising above it emotionally and mentally. Since I was sexually active far too young to handle it maturely on an emotional level, I grew into the habit of viewing sex as the expression of a biological drive rather than an expression of love or caring between people. As an adult, don't have sex with people I don't care for, otherwise it is just rutting, but...but there is always some reservation. As I have gotten older, I have tried to be more emotionally available to my lovers, especially since that I what I want from them, but I know that I am less 'there' than I am capable of. I expect I need to work out what happened in that 18 month period when I was so very young and vulnerable, and so much went so wrong so fast.

I also think that coming to terms with those two issues will resolve some other things which I believe are a consequence of my ambivalence.