I have been remiss
I have been remiss as usual this time of year. Too busy to think, really. I try to post thoughtful things to my journal, but for now, I have neither the energy nor the time, so I will post instead the bits of memory that have survived the flooding of my mind and body with stress hormones.
1- Tammy is back in the hospital, this time with acute idopathic pancreatitis. Today is day 11. They will not release her, because they have no idea what caused it, they cannot get it working again, and she is in so much pain that morphine every 2 hours isn't working.
2-For my birthday vacation I'm going to the Carribbean. I've asked Tammy is she wants to come along. Hopefuly she will be fit for travel in 6 weeks. It seems to help her spirits. She said she lives on the beach in her mind right now... she said when we get there to bury her in the sand and dig her up when it is time to leave. I told her I'll find a cabana boy to bring her drinks and flip her once an hour ;)
3-I think I have found someone willing to mentor me as a writer, when I'm ready. He writes professionally and I think I can learn a lot from him. And he seems to like my babble, even my poetry, especially my latest raging-babble-poem, which he said he likes "...precisely because it is not a self-conscious piece of artwork."
4-Had an amazing weekend with Chris two weeks ago. Had a fantasy involving frozen blueberries fulfilled. Quite, quite intense.
5-Stephanie is drinking a LOT these days. She's gone through all but a half dozen bottles of the WVV wine guild reds we'd acquired over the years.
She even drank one of the $95-a-bottle bordeaux blends from Griffin Creek, even though it was 5 years away from being remotely drinkable. I've got two empty wine racks *sigh* I finally told her that if she was going to guzzle $50 bottles of wine like they were $7.99 bottles of wine she could at least ask me if I wanted a glass when she opened one. She switched to drinking 14oz cans of Guiness, sometimes 3 and 4 a night. She was piling them up in the kitchen, and the other night she knocked them over when she went to the fridge to get anotoher beer...and left the mess. Which made me twitch. But I left it. And left it. And finally, on the third day, I bagged the cans up. They filled a tall kitchen garbage bag.
6-We've had 30 days of significant rainfall. The Clackamas and Willamette rivers are flooding. The two State parks that are effectively my back yard are under water. The photo at right is Clackamette Park... that body of water isn't the river, its actually the RV park.
7-The rain doesn't stop my walks. Or my urge to photograph what I see. Its a pity I don't have the technical expertize to capture things the way my eyes see them. Like the raindrops collecting on the ends of these tassles.
8-I heard that song by James Blunt "You're Beautiful." The lyrics are beautiful and it is sung in this earnest, aching, heartfelt, slightly awkward way. I heard it on the radio one night on the way home from work and it brought tears to my eyes. Reminds me of Cat Stevens for some reason.
9-I watched The Importance of Being Earnest (2002) With Colin Firth and Rupert Everett and really enjoyed it. Oscar Wilde was such a brilliant man. What a pity he lived in an era so intolerant of his nature.
10-Michael told me something that really rocked me back on my heels. It hurt. A lot. After some discussion, we came to understand that it was a word-choice thing, that he used a word that has very powerful connoations for me, but which is much more casual for him. Once he said that word I coudl not hear past the pain, so I missed what he was really trying to say. Even though we cleared it up, I'm still very sensitive about it. I think my tentativeness is making him a bit nuts. Ah well.
11-Chris is being a sweetie. Only the gods know why he tolerates me. Me and my strange nature, my idiosyncrasies, my odd relationships. He must love me.
1- Tammy is back in the hospital, this time with acute idopathic pancreatitis. Today is day 11. They will not release her, because they have no idea what caused it, they cannot get it working again, and she is in so much pain that morphine every 2 hours isn't working.
2-For my birthday vacation I'm going to the Carribbean. I've asked Tammy is she wants to come along. Hopefuly she will be fit for travel in 6 weeks. It seems to help her spirits. She said she lives on the beach in her mind right now... she said when we get there to bury her in the sand and dig her up when it is time to leave. I told her I'll find a cabana boy to bring her drinks and flip her once an hour ;)
3-I think I have found someone willing to mentor me as a writer, when I'm ready. He writes professionally and I think I can learn a lot from him. And he seems to like my babble, even my poetry, especially my latest raging-babble-poem, which he said he likes "...precisely because it is not a self-conscious piece of artwork."
4-Had an amazing weekend with Chris two weeks ago. Had a fantasy involving frozen blueberries fulfilled. Quite, quite intense.
5-Stephanie is drinking a LOT these days. She's gone through all but a half dozen bottles of the WVV wine guild reds we'd acquired over the years.
She even drank one of the $95-a-bottle bordeaux blends from Griffin Creek, even though it was 5 years away from being remotely drinkable. I've got two empty wine racks *sigh* I finally told her that if she was going to guzzle $50 bottles of wine like they were $7.99 bottles of wine she could at least ask me if I wanted a glass when she opened one. She switched to drinking 14oz cans of Guiness, sometimes 3 and 4 a night. She was piling them up in the kitchen, and the other night she knocked them over when she went to the fridge to get anotoher beer...and left the mess. Which made me twitch. But I left it. And left it. And finally, on the third day, I bagged the cans up. They filled a tall kitchen garbage bag.
6-We've had 30 days of significant rainfall. The Clackamas and Willamette rivers are flooding. The two State parks that are effectively my back yard are under water. The photo at right is Clackamette Park... that body of water isn't the river, its actually the RV park.7-The rain doesn't stop my walks. Or my urge to photograph what I see. Its a pity I don't have the technical expertize to capture things the way my eyes see them. Like the raindrops collecting on the ends of these tassles.
8-I heard that song by James Blunt "You're Beautiful." The lyrics are beautiful and it is sung in this earnest, aching, heartfelt, slightly awkward way. I heard it on the radio one night on the way home from work and it brought tears to my eyes. Reminds me of Cat Stevens for some reason.
9-I watched The Importance of Being Earnest (2002) With Colin Firth and Rupert Everett and really enjoyed it. Oscar Wilde was such a brilliant man. What a pity he lived in an era so intolerant of his nature.
10-Michael told me something that really rocked me back on my heels. It hurt. A lot. After some discussion, we came to understand that it was a word-choice thing, that he used a word that has very powerful connoations for me, but which is much more casual for him. Once he said that word I coudl not hear past the pain, so I missed what he was really trying to say. Even though we cleared it up, I'm still very sensitive about it. I think my tentativeness is making him a bit nuts. Ah well.
11-Chris is being a sweetie. Only the gods know why he tolerates me. Me and my strange nature, my idiosyncrasies, my odd relationships. He must love me.
posted by KR | 1/19/2006 05:54:00 PM
1 Comments:
Re: Oscar Wilde, a few weeks ago I watched "An Ideal Husband", the 1999 British production--light, frothy, and sparkling dialogs. Wilde is always enjoyable.
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